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I Cannot Make the Leap January 9, 2011

Posted by jetson in Personal.
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Many Christians support their beliefs with faith. They say that without faith, they might not believe. And I am left wondering why faith is necessary at all? If God is real, then why do we need faith to believe? Well, for one thing, we cannot actually see God, or can we?

Exodus 33:20
There shall no man see me, and live.

John 1:18
No man hath seen God at any time.

Exodus 33:11
And the Lord spake to Moses face to face, as a man speaketh to his friend.

Genesis 32:30
And Jacob called the name of the place Peniel: for I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.

So, here are four verses that claim we both cannot see God, and that God has been seen. I guess we’ll never know, and to be honest, I have never met a Christian who claims to have actually seen God. So, faith it is then.

But faith is a leap, isn’t it? That’s what we mean when we say “a leap of faith”. It means that we figuratively jump, or “leap” to a belief, despite not actually knowing that the belief is real, or true. And it is this leap that I cannot make, at least not with any honesty.

And why should I? What exactly am I leaping to? A god that is so powerful as to have created the entire universe and everything in it, yet cannot make a simple appearance to me? I don’t understand this. According to Exodus, God can and has been seen. I guess I am supposed to conclude that I am not as important or special as Moses. And frankly, according to Exodus 33:20, no man has seen God and lived! No thanks!

As a person who has been trying to understand what all of the fuss is about, I have yet to be shown a clear method to join the believers club. But the one thing that continues to surface, is that I have to believe with all my heart, and have faith. As much as I might want to believe with all my heart, I simply cannot. I don’t know why, either. I don’t hate God, I don’t hate religion. I’ve spent plenty of time in church and sunday school, so I know a lot of the major stories in the Bible. I know that I will burn in Hell for all eternity if I don’t accept Jesus as my savior. Yet, here I am without the ability to simply believe with all my heart.

Faith is empty when it comes to God. It is a leap to nothing. It is exactly like having faith and believing with all my heart that Santa is real. And I realize that Santa is nothing at all like God, but believers must realize that to me, Santa is exactly like God. Imaginary. And no amount of faith is going to change that. I need something else. Something that Christianity simply has been unable to provide. Evidence.